Thoughts of a Dumb Blonde

     It’s been a long school year. This is my 76th blog. Who would’ve thought my 11th grade Honors English class would start this craziness. While doing these blogs I’ve learned that it’s hard to write about things other people will care about. I’ve learned that I actually like writing. I’ve learned that writing about myself can be easy but most people reading my blog care more about the bigger issues. I’ve learned that I’m really not that good at managing my time but what teenager actually is. I’ve learned that this blog was good for me. This blog has given me motivation to do things I want. It has given me a chance to learn more about myself and how I work. I know most of my classmates would probably say that they hated blogging but I have learned to like it. I do think I’ll like blogging more when it’s on my own terms. It’s been a crazy time but here we are: ending the school year with blog number 76.

     My finals start tomorrow and I’m already dreading it. Over two days I have five finals. I also have two essay finals due tomorrow. I have so much to do and I’m kinda freaking out. I’m so ready for it to be Friday afternoon so I can be done with them all. It’s been a long school year and I’m finally getting to the very end. After Friday I only have three and a half days left and I’m finally a senior. I’m so glad junior year is almost over. This year has definitely been the hardest year of all. I can’t wait for summer and being able to hang out with my friends and do thinks like go swimming and shopping. But before then I still have to get through all these finals. Wish me luck.

     The second season of 13 Reasons Why came out yesterday and I already finished watching it. This season was so good. I’ll try not to spoil anything but I am going to go into some detail; so if you haven’t watched yet and do not want to know what will happen I suggest you don’t read any further. Many people judge the show itself for being graphic, triggering, or inaccurate. I think that the show is  a great way to talk about real issues that often aren’t addressed in the media. Yes the show is graphic but it is that way in order to display the real pain and suffering people go through.      I understand that the episodes may be triggering to people that struggle with depression, ptsd, and other metal health issues. However, the people at the show understand that too. This season, every episode started off with a trigger warning. Every episode also ended with a member of the cast reminding viewers that if they ever need help they can reach out or g...

      I’ve liked fishing since I was a little girl. I’ve always had a lot of fun going out with my family and spending time at the lake. However, my family stopped going when I was still young. I still like to fish, but I didn’t really have anyone to take me. Today my boyfriend bought me a fishing license and took me fishing with his family. I had a lot of fun. Fishing is one of his favorite things so it was nice to be able to go with him. I’m hoping that since he got me a license we will be able to go more often over the summer. I think it’ll be a good chance for us to do something together that he really enjoys.

     This morning was my boyfriend’s “senior night” for baseball. Tonight was also my junior (my boyfriend’s senior) prom. I went to the game at 10:30 to watch the senior ceremony. I got to see my boyfriend walk the field with his dad and teammates. I was kinda okay; I didn’t cry a lot like I thought I would. In high school baseball they usually play 7 innings. The boys game today went into 10. I stayed till the top of the ninth but I ended up having to leave to get ready for prom. I got ready with my friend (my boyfriend’s sister.) my cousin did my hair and my aunt did hers. The boys didn’t get done till late so we decided not to go to dinner. Instead we ended up hanging out in our clothes and ordering a pizza so that when my boyfriend showed up we just hung out and ate. We didn’t change until the last possible minute and then left for prom. Of course nothing can ever go perfectly smooth and we ended up forgetting the tickets at my house. Luckily I live close enough that...

     This Sunday is mother’s day. I’ve been so busy lately that I haven’t had much time to get my mom anything myself. I got lucky because my boyfriend’s class at school is selling flowers for mother’s day. He got her flowers both from me and from himself. I’m glad that he got my mom something and that he thought of her. I hope my mom appreciates what he’s doing as much as I do.

     Tonight I babysat my little cousin at my cousin’s house. My cousins decided to go out with my parents so they asked me to babysit their 8 month old. I also was in charge of watching their three dogs and a puppy that they were watching. I actually had a lot of fun. My little cousin is adorable and she loves zooming around in her walker. She loves Moana so I left it on for her. I even rocked her to sleep watching it. After I put her to bed I went back out and watched movies. While I waited for them to get home the puppy cuddles up on my lap and slept. I’m starting to figure out how much I actually love babysitting. Babysitting makes me genuinely happy and I’m glad I’m planning on working with kids.

       I got called into the guidance office today to fix my schedule. Because of this I have a pretty good idea of what my schedule is going to look like. My schedule at the moment should look like the picture above. I’m actually happy with how it looks at the moment. Things are always subject to change but I like having an idea of what next year will look like. Knowing my classes is making me excited for next year. I’m ready to be done with this year and this is just making me even more anxious.

     Here’s a little update on each one of my New Years Resolutions. I haven’t been going to church more but I’m planning on starting in the summer I’ve been crazy with softball season since the end of February so I have been kind of working out but I haven’t had time to workout on my own I’ve been a little more organized lately with my school work and I’m planning on rearranging my bedroom soon so that it will help my organizing I’ve been doing art for my class at school but I’m hoping to do even more on my own over the summer School isn’t out yet but I’m still hoping to continue my blogs after I finish the year I’ve had to read so many school books that I haven’t had time for personal reading but I hope to read at least most of the books over the summer I’m going back to gymnastics soon I’m almost done with high school softball and I’m planning to play in the fall I’m planning on saving some of the money I make this summer for college I’m starting to narrow...

     I’ve been researching the Disney College Program a lot lately. I’ve been looking up information and watching YouTube videos from participants. I’ve been watching videos about how people got accepted. I’ve also watched videos of people who have already auditioned for characters. I think it’s interesting to see the information that only the people that already participated would know. Watching these videos make me excited to be able to apply when I get to college. This makes me excited for my future but I’m not in much of a hurry.

     I’m going back to gymnastics soon. As soon as softball is over I need to get back and start working on my skills for next year. I’ve been gone for three months so I’m very behind on the things I need to work on. I want to go back and do everything I can to have a good senior year. I want to make next season the best one yet. I can’t wait to get back out there and get working.

     I work at the YMCA coaching gymnastics two nights a week and I’ll be starting again in May. I’m also going to start babysitting regularly in June. I’ll be babysitting two mornings a week. Between these two things I won’t get much money. This summer I want to be able to do fun things. I’m probably going to have to pay for my gas to do those things. I also need to save money for college. I don’t know if I’ll have enough time for an actual job and I don’t want working to consume my summer. I just feel like I should get a job if I can. I don’t know what I’m gonna do but I have to decide soon.

     So I’ve had my permit since July. So that’s 10 months and still no license. I wasn’t allowed to drive all winter because of the snowy, icy roads. Because of this I’m very behind on my driving. I’m kinda worried that I won’t be ready to take my test soon enough. I don’t want to have to renew my permit. I’m also not allowed to get my license until after I take my schools driver’s training class. The problem is I can’t take the class until softball season is over which isn’t until at least May 12th. I just hope I’ll be ready for my test soon.

     Tonight was my school’s induction ceremony for NHS. Twenty-three of us got accepted. For one night we got to be honored in front of our friends and families. I got to walk up on stage and accept my certificate with twenty-two of my classmates. It was nice to get acknowledged for our hard work. Also this will help us all with college which is awesome. I’m excited to keep moving.

     I’ve always been someone who says they don’t have any friends. I know this sounds like an exaggeration and it is. Usually I’d consider myself to have like one or two good friends plus my boyfriend. Now I’m starting to realize I have people in my life that actually want to be my friends. Just recently I got some bad news about one of my relatives. I was talking to my friend about it and she surprised me the next day with bath bombs that her mom had made. It’s nice to know that I have people I can rely on and that I don’t have to deal with everything alone.

     Today is Easter! I hope everyone reading this had a good day. I started my day going to church. I don’t go to church nearly as often as I should but I do go sometimes. When I do go I always love seeing everyone and I actually like listening to our pastor talk. My church is pretty small so we’re just like a big family. Everyone cares for everyone else and even though there aren’t many other kids I enjoy talking to the older people there.      So after church I went to my grandmas house for Easter dinner. Every holiday everyone goes to my grandmas, which now includes my boyfriend. I love spending time with my family on holidays. Now that we have so many babies in my family I almost always am holding a baby which honestly just makes my day ten times better. Plus the food is always great so that’s a plus. Also I got concert tickets for Easter so I’m really excited about going to the concert in June. More updates to come.

     I got the letter today saying that I got accepted into my school’s chapter of the National Honor Society. I turned in my application several weeks ago and my friends and I have been anxiously awaiting our letters. Even though there’s really no reason for any of us not to be accepted, I think we were all still worried that we wouldn’t get in. It’s honestly a relief because now that I know I’m accepted I don’t have to stress anymore. Now the next step is the induction ceremony later on. Even though I’m accepted and I’m no longer required to get volunteer hours I do not plan on stopping with my volunteer work. Volunteering is something that is very important to me. I’m gonna try and make sure I help out a lot this summer when I can.

     Both nights of broadcast went really well! As far as I know, no one messed up the dance. We also didn’t mess up any stunts. We hit everything and put on a good show for everyone. I had a lot of fun performing with my friends and watching everyone else perform. Broadcast is always cool because it’s fun to see what everyone can do. Being the first act, I got to watch the whole show from the background which was great. Even though it was fun I’m glad that it’s over now so we can stop worrying about it.

Tonight was the final dress rehearsal before Broadcast. Broadcast is my schools “talent show” but it consists only singers, musicians, and dancers. This will be my second Broadcast; my first was as a freshman. Last year I was in Myrtle Beach for softball durning Broadcast week so I couldn’t participate. I do a routine in Broadcast with my wrestling cheer squad. We perform a dance with stunts. Tonight was the last practice run in costume so tomorrow when that curtain opens it’s do or die. My squad is actually the opening act which is really cool. A lot of people say it’s stressful because we’re “setting the tone for the whole show,” but I like the spot because we get to perform quickly and then relax and watch the show on a TV set up in a nearby classroom. I think Broadcast is really cool because the people at our school are really talented so it’s fun to watch. The one kid in my grade plays electric guitar in a band, accompanied singers with an acoustic guitar and piano, and plays trom...

     I feel like I have so much stuff going on this week. NHS acceptance letters are going out this week. SAT scores come out Friday. The end of the third quarter is Thursday. I have a bunch of tests. And Broadcast is this weekend. Everything is just lining up together and I feel like I can't keep up with everything. I already have softball practice six days this week. I feel like this week is gonna be exhausting and I'm stressing so much.