Thoughts of a Dumb Blonde

     It’s been a long school year. This is my 76th blog. Who would’ve thought my 11th grade Honors English class would start this craziness. While doing these blogs I’ve learned that it’s hard to write about things other people will care about. I’ve learned that I actually like writing. I’ve learned that writing about myself can be easy but most people reading my blog care more about the bigger issues. I’ve learned that I’m really not that good at managing my time but what teenager actually is. I’ve learned that this blog was good for me. This blog has given me motivation to do things I want. It has given me a chance to learn more about myself and how I work. I know most of my classmates would probably say that they hated blogging but I have learned to like it. I do think I’ll like blogging more when it’s on my own terms. It’s been a crazy time but here we are: ending the school year with blog number 76.

     My finals start tomorrow and I’m already dreading it. Over two days I have five finals. I also have two essay finals due tomorrow. I have so much to do and I’m kinda freaking out. I’m so ready for it to be Friday afternoon so I can be done with them all. It’s been a long school year and I’m finally getting to the very end. After Friday I only have three and a half days left and I’m finally a senior. I’m so glad junior year is almost over. This year has definitely been the hardest year of all. I can’t wait for summer and being able to hang out with my friends and do thinks like go swimming and shopping. But before then I still have to get through all these finals. Wish me luck.

     The second season of 13 Reasons Why came out yesterday and I already finished watching it. This season was so good. I’ll try not to spoil anything but I am going to go into some detail; so if you haven’t watched yet and do not want to know what will happen I suggest you don’t read any further. Many people judge the show itself for being graphic, triggering, or inaccurate. I think that the show is  a great way to talk about real issues that often aren’t addressed in the media. Yes the show is graphic but it is that way in order to display the real pain and suffering people go through.      I understand that the episodes may be triggering to people that struggle with depression, ptsd, and other metal health issues. However, the people at the show understand that too. This season, every episode started off with a trigger warning. Every episode also ended with a member of the cast reminding viewers that if they ever need help they can reach out or g...

      I’ve liked fishing since I was a little girl. I’ve always had a lot of fun going out with my family and spending time at the lake. However, my family stopped going when I was still young. I still like to fish, but I didn’t really have anyone to take me. Today my boyfriend bought me a fishing license and took me fishing with his family. I had a lot of fun. Fishing is one of his favorite things so it was nice to be able to go with him. I’m hoping that since he got me a license we will be able to go more often over the summer. I think it’ll be a good chance for us to do something together that he really enjoys.

     This morning was my boyfriend’s “senior night” for baseball. Tonight was also my junior (my boyfriend’s senior) prom. I went to the game at 10:30 to watch the senior ceremony. I got to see my boyfriend walk the field with his dad and teammates. I was kinda okay; I didn’t cry a lot like I thought I would. In high school baseball they usually play 7 innings. The boys game today went into 10. I stayed till the top of the ninth but I ended up having to leave to get ready for prom. I got ready with my friend (my boyfriend’s sister.) my cousin did my hair and my aunt did hers. The boys didn’t get done till late so we decided not to go to dinner. Instead we ended up hanging out in our clothes and ordering a pizza so that when my boyfriend showed up we just hung out and ate. We didn’t change until the last possible minute and then left for prom. Of course nothing can ever go perfectly smooth and we ended up forgetting the tickets at my house. Luckily I live close enough that...

     This Sunday is mother’s day. I’ve been so busy lately that I haven’t had much time to get my mom anything myself. I got lucky because my boyfriend’s class at school is selling flowers for mother’s day. He got her flowers both from me and from himself. I’m glad that he got my mom something and that he thought of her. I hope my mom appreciates what he’s doing as much as I do.

     Tonight I babysat my little cousin at my cousin’s house. My cousins decided to go out with my parents so they asked me to babysit their 8 month old. I also was in charge of watching their three dogs and a puppy that they were watching. I actually had a lot of fun. My little cousin is adorable and she loves zooming around in her walker. She loves Moana so I left it on for her. I even rocked her to sleep watching it. After I put her to bed I went back out and watched movies. While I waited for them to get home the puppy cuddles up on my lap and slept. I’m starting to figure out how much I actually love babysitting. Babysitting makes me genuinely happy and I’m glad I’m planning on working with kids.

       I got called into the guidance office today to fix my schedule. Because of this I have a pretty good idea of what my schedule is going to look like. My schedule at the moment should look like the picture above. I’m actually happy with how it looks at the moment. Things are always subject to change but I like having an idea of what next year will look like. Knowing my classes is making me excited for next year. I’m ready to be done with this year and this is just making me even more anxious.